The "Ness's" Have It.

I'm ganna pray there is a private function of this thing. I'm ganna write a bit about something thats going to always bother me.. and always is the correct term because I have dreams about this problem.. nothing is ever resolved. "Ganna" isn't a word apparently. My mac spell-check software keeps underlining it. Oh well, i'm running with it.....

So today I got a wake up call about where other people my age might be using their time, energy, talents, and getting money doing just those things. Now I'm not usually a hater of people and there successes, but for some reason I guess I always believed God would, in his infinite power, wisdom and all those fabulous words that assign life changing promise to his ever growing untouchable-ness (yet not another word), I believed He'd take care of all the wrong that people have done to me and deal them different life challenges.. maybe not give them so many breaks.. justice would be served. Well today that all became apparently clear. He doesn't do that. So people usually get off scott free.

I won't go into specifics but, there are few people in my life that I feel actually deserve this kind of treatment from the Lord God Almighty.. however, they are thriving. THRIVING. And it makes me think that maybe God doesn't deal out justice. He just honors people he likes. Dish out the gold stars to those who show his love and present anointing powers to others, otherwise known as showing off. Great, it's high school all over again. A giant popularity contest in the clouds. I wanna be favored by God but not at the expensive of trumping over others to "show" how much I honor and trust God. What happened to the privacy and personalness of the God that is suppose to show up between Him and I, when no one else is around and it's just us.. no one to show off too. No way to cash in my annoitedaness. However will I thrive in this unforgivable mindset? I don't think "it's just not my time yet" is going to last much longer.